I lost my emotions, they came back, and now ive lost them again. I hope they are gone for good this time. I cannot feel love, pain, anger, sorrow or death. These words are obsolete in my mind. These emotions are long gone. A world without emotions would be a better world to me.

not gonna lie in my opinion thats pretty depressing. emotions are part of the "human experience" and in a way enrich it. i mean with out sadness there is no happiness. with out envy there is no desire to move further in life. sorta like the whole buddhist thing but still very true.

I have no desire to move on in life. I let my feelings go.. When I met her.. Everytime I opened my heart, all that came in was pain. I had no desire for these emotions, so I let them go. I'm not happy, nor sad. I do not feel pain, nor love...

Calm down bro, it all gets better. Swear

Ehh.. She has made me happier, but I still feel the rage and sorrow, and am tempted to let it go. But I'm afraid of who I will let it out on...

Don't "take it out" on anybody, at least physically. It's nice to have someone to vent to from time to time (glances over at the supportive early members of this forum). If you can vent to someone, great. They can be prepared for your anger whereas you might not restrain it should you decide to take it out on yourself (please don't). I had an extremely rough couple of years, most likely due to chaotic hormones. I saw a psychiatrist for a while and I never believed him or anyone else when I was told that "things will get better." Well, they did, and I went from attempting suicide over rather trivial things to enjoying life more than I did before my depression. From my own experience, and from helping my friends by telling them the same thing, I'll tell you: things will improve. It's just a waiting game of sorts. I have a problem with getting immediately attached to people (namely those I've dated, so to speak) and I used to get torn apart when I would lose them in some way, even if I never actually "bonded" with them properly. I would immediately accept people as an extra appendage, before I took the time to know them. Almost exactly a year ago (Valentine's Day 2009) I had my girlfriend of one month - and that's my longest, by the way - break up with me because I hadn't once seen her (and I asked her to marry me when I was high, but that's a different story), and I cried pretty hard. But she was right. I didn't actually know her. I guess my point is that I didn't realize the logic (or lack thereof) in my depression until much later after the fact. It took a lot of self-counseling and changing my mentality and outlook almost completely. If you begin to realize flaws in your logic (and I don't mean to imply that there are any, but on the other hand everyone does) and make an effort to fix these faults, then I think your overall quality of life will improve. I don't mean to preach my problems and beliefs to you or anything, but I'm just telling you what personally worked for me. Perhaps it may work for you as well.

I sincerely hope this all helps.

Well, i've had my girl 5 months. We've been through alot. But I really do love her. She's the only person that I truly love and truly makes me happy. I asked her to marry me. She said yes. But i'm 15 and she's 17. But when we're old enough, we're getting married.

Dude i realize its harsh and stuff but it could be worse. I got friends who were in your position after being in a relationship for a year or more. The trick is to reach out to your friends. Release a little with them. Real friends will help you through this. Theres an old adage that says that time heals all wounds. I currently have a massive crack running from the front of the bone that make my nose back towards my eye without affecting my vision. I would love to get into another fight but i just have to wait. Fighting gives me like another purpose and I get fairly antsy without it. Just wait.

I would fight if it couldnt get me kicked out.

Yeah that can be tricky. Keep in mind though that there is no rush; every decision should be carefully planned and inspected for possible flaws. I'm not talking about you or your girlfriend, mainly because here in Canada, these things are different.

So to continue on the main subject, I suggest you a good author named Anthony Robbins. His material is mostly about motivation, but he has a few topics on emotions. I find him very simple and energizing; I myself started to listen to his audiobooks because I wanted another point of view on life, and also because I heard good stuff about him in the past.

I don't believe that someone can solve my problems, because we are the owner of our body and we decide everything that is going on. It's just a matter of point of view.